Posts Tagged ‘twitter’

I’m sick. I’m still accepting I’m sick. I’m having to accept I can’t run on all cylinders 15+ hours out of the day. In fact, I’ve had about 1 total hour since I’ve been awake that I’ve felt reasonably normal, and even then I’m maybe at 50% of firing. I feel like someone who is beaten down. I keep kicking myself internally because I can’t do these things. But it’s not my fault I got mono, and it’s not my fault I have zero energy to get things done. It’s a matter now of making sure I stay hydrated, eat enough to survive, and sleep when I feel like it, work on papers when I feel like it, and pray everything works out in a good manner. I’ve resigned myself that I might never get to work at my school again for my work study this year. I have not yet conceded my semester to this illness. I’m a fighter, down to my marrow of my bones.. and right now, I hurt.. to the marrow of my bones. It takes a lot for me to complain about being sick.

I hate feeling negative, so I’m trying not to. Both with not surrounding myself to it, and having it come from internally. So I’m dumping it all in this entry. *breathes*

Something I’ve noticed, especially lately, is the incredible and insane amount of negativity on Twitter.

I realize quite a few of the people I am thinking of are over 10 years younger than I am (or in that nebulous kind of range) and not only will probably not read this entry, but would feel it’s okay to mock it. I also notice that many of them are slyly insulting me, and my friends, behind my back, defollowing me on Twitter, etc. And that’s fine. If they feel the need to make themselves feel better, more power to them.

But they’re wrong in doing so. They are doing themselves damage. No – not because they’re ignoring me (me? that egocentric? nah), but because they’re ignoring my message.

10 years ago I’m not 100% sure I would have accepted what I (and Bill Hicks) are about to say, but I hope the aforementioned people decide to read it.

This much negativity towards: people you don’t like, things you don’t like, people you are jealous of, people you are trying to get attention from and cannot, situations where all you exude are negative feelings, thoughts, and emotions.. have you ever considered, for one minute, that the person on the other side of the internet is EXACTLY THAT? a PERSON? with their own sets of feelings, thoughts, and emotions.

Switch places. How do you feel now? Would you HONESTLY be able to cope with the adversity and all the negativity being tossed at you?

Chances are, I doubt it. But – again – I do not know, as I do not know a lot of these people and I will not project negativity at them. I will hypothesize and say no. I don’t pretend to know your life. I don’t think I ever could. However, that doesn’t exclude me wanting to find out more about you – as a human being, as a person, as (insert name here), so I can understand you – and it – better.

Something I’ve realized, since I was 18, is how crazy people get on the Internet. How insane people can take it offline. I didn’t grow up with the Internet like most of the world.. my first exposure was when I was.. 16? 17? Life is different now.

So, an anecdote. Here’s something I don’t talk about much: I used to have a stalker offline. She sent me death threats. She brought them to concerts where I was working. She put nails in my tires when I had a 3 hour drive home at 2 am so I might get run over when I got a flat (her words). (PS, this is pre-cell phone – in fact, i still carry around a prepaid phone card, not because I need it, but just because.)

Would you like to know why? Because I dared to not have sex with a band member of a band I worked with that she was OBSESSED with. More specifically, “You told him no, and you should die for that.”

I’ll let all that sink in a bit.

Now.. that’s pretty much one of my excessive examples. But any kind of passion taken to the extreme negative like that always gives me chills. it also gives me a damned good perspective: there is no reason – no reason – to be nasty with someone you have never, ever met.

People do not realize that their negativity means they will draw more and more of it to them. I didn’t understand this until this year, but I understand it in dividends right now. I have people keeping me sane right now, because they care enough to tell me “you’re being silly. quit being hard on yourself. you didn’t make yourself sick, but you can make yourself sicker unless you take control of yourself.

I hear you guys. I hear you. And I thank you for continually saying it to me. And I ask my friends to hold me up while I’m sick, because it’s really devastating to me. This is just this important to me, and needed to be said, and out of my head.

I promised a Bill Hicks quote, and he says in just a couple paragraphs what I’ve spent a ton of energy on and after this I’m going to go nap. (Emphasis mine)

“The world is like a ride in an amusement park, and when you choose to go on it you think it’s real because that’s how powerful our minds are. The ride goes up and down, around and around, it has thrills and chills, and it’s very brightly colored, and it’s very loud, and it’s fun for a while. Many people have been on the ride a long time, and they begin to wonder, “Hey, is this real, or is this just a ride?” And other people have remembered, and they come back to us and say, “Hey, don’t worry; don’t be afraid, ever, because this is just a ride.” And we โ€ฆ kill those people. “Shut him up! I’ve got a lot invested in this ride, shut him up! Look at my furrows of worry, look at my big bank account, and my family. This has to be real.” It’s just a ride. But we always kill the good guys who try and tell us that, you ever notice that? And let the demons run amok โ€ฆ But it doesn’t matter, because it’s just a ride. And we can change it any time we want. It’s only a choice. No effort, no work, no job, no savings of money. Just a simple choice, right now, between fear and love. The eyes of fear want you to put bigger locks on your doors, buy guns, close yourself off. The eyes of love instead see all of us as one. Here’s what we can do to change the world, right now, to a better ride. Take all that money we spend on weapons and defenses each year and instead spend it feeding and clothing and educating the poor of the world, which it would pay for many times over, not one human being excluded, and we could explore space, together, both inner and outer, forever, in peace.


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It’s just.. I’ve been a bit busy writing for other places! Like The Footy Blog, talking about Benfica ๐Ÿ™‚

Also, I’ve been studying very very hard in school. So hard in fact, I got a 97% on my American Lit exam. I think I got a 70ish in American Lit last semester on my first exam. Funny, how that goes.

But, dear blog, after studying anywhere from 25-50 hours a week, I tend to forget enough words to go here. But I promise, I’ll do better.

After fall break and I lock myself in the library for a week. And next week, I’ll be heading to Austin.

But somehow, in there, we’ll write some more, together.

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I attended the Smalltown 140 Conference in Hutchinson, KS on Tuesday the 21st. I learned more than I could ever put into a blog, but here’s a list of 6 things (and I’m not mentioning names, Twitter handles or the like, as these are general thoughts – and if you see yourself in this, please do not be angry, this is just me being honest and open):

1. I don’t hashtag nearly enough on Twitter. In fact, unless I’m livetweeting an event I’m attending (like #140Conf or #NABShow), I rarely if ever use hashtags. And that’s sad because I even have Hashable. Woops.

2. It’s still right to speak out if you feel something is wrong – even if you disagree with a speaker – because it’s still possible to be polite. I caught some flak on Twitter when I tweeted about a speaker who talked about their Spanish vacation and threw out some Spanish words because I said it didn’t add anything to his presentation. Some people disagreed – and that’s fine. Caught flak about being negative when this is supposed to be a positive event. And that’s.. somewhat valid, however, criticism when you are asking for it, and it’s given clearly and politely is not negative – it is building. (But that can be argued at a different place.)

However… my point was made a few hours after the conference in a discussion where none of us could remember anything about his speech, but we sure remembered his pictures. Interesting, isn’t it? that leads into #3:

3. I needed to keep remembering 95% of the people I listened to have probably never taken a Public Speaking class, because more rules were broken than followed. (So, basically, cut people slack every now and again) But.. um. As a tip, to anyone thinking of speaking? I would suggest just checking out a basic speech book at the library and leafing through it. ๐Ÿ™‚

(and before I get “WELL Y DIDNT U SPEAK” – I wasn’t sure if I was going, I actually hadn’t planned on it until last minute. It wasn’t out of not wanting to, it was not being able to devote the time to speak – plus, I’m not entirely sure what I would have spoken on.)

4. If you are speaking at a conference about Twitter, and I have more followers/activity than you, how am I supposed to listen to your credibility? If you have an engaging story, that’s how! There were some stories that were just flat out amazing, it wouldn’t matter if they still had an egg avatar and 0 tweets – because I’d want to hear more. This is the interesting part of #140Conf overall though – people of varied backgrounds all got the same 10-15 minutes.

But I question, if you have very little followers/activity, why are you speaking at a Twitter conference anyway? Not a slam – an honest question. It’s kind of confusifying.

5. Meeting people on Twitter is awesome. Meeting them in person is even better. I’m so happy that I went and got to meet some people I have been talking to for months.. and some I just met there. I definitely feel like I want to engage the people I’ve met because of this conference more.

6. Lest anyone thinks that I didn’t like this event – I loved it so much I’m kicking around the idea of trying to do a completely sports themed #140Conf. Food ones were mentioned, I could see a beauty 140, animals, activism.. the list is large, but as I use Twitter mostly for sports related things, I think it could be an awesome idea. So.. watch this space in a few months, if I decide I can devote enough to make it as kick ass as I know it could be. (When I want to do something, I want to do it right.)

and a bonus, for a few select people out there:

Every sheep is sacred.

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This came across my email a few days ago, and I think this has a lot of potential to me. Not that I don’t have a ton to write about already, but sometimes I need to not feel pressured to make something “absolutely amazing and stellar.”


A message to all members of NaBloPoMo

Hi bloggers,

June’s theme for daily blogging: FAN. There are the physical ones, the symbol of summer in the northern hemisphere. I’m sitting across from one right now, and it’s cooling down the room. There are the handheld ones that women demurely shake in front of their face. There are the human ones — the fans we see at sporting events or the fans we see in our comment section. There are the times it comes tucked into a word… such as “fantastic.”


So, 30 days of things I’m a fan of. You ready for this? Some of them will startle you. ๐Ÿ™‚

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If all goes to plan, this will go to post as I am waiting in the airport waiting to go to Chicago.

I get to see my friend Jen, who I don’t think I’ve seen in at least 9 years. I get to meet my friend Sarah who I have known for several. I HOPEFULLY will get to meet my friend Drew, his wife, and newborn daughter after… years and years, we’ve known each other via Dave Matthews and Warehouse.

Wednesday night I get to go embarrass myself while playing Rock Band at Jen’s work.

I get to go to Gameworks for my birthday night. (any friends reading this in or near Chicago, drop me a line! You’re invited!) Yes, I turn 31 on May 19. Send me birthday wishes? =D Yes, I’m odd about it. I’m weird. I approach birthdays with both dread and happiness. One year closer to the unknown, but one year more I have lived.

Friday, Saturday, and Sunday are Anime Central/Acen. Friday Jen and I are cosplaying Femme!Ten for her and “Tooth and Claw” Rose for me. Saturday I am playing Miwako from Paradise Kiss and she is cosplaying Howl from Howl’s Moving Castle. I also am on the Final Fantasy MMORPG panel from 7-9 in Salon 1. Come. I’ll pelt gum at you. I will also most definitely be attending the Yoshiki Q&A, I am not a fan of every crazy Japanese band out there, but I really admire and respect Yoshiki and in a bit of a fangirl moment, yay he follows me on Twitter too! Sunday I am cosplaying Luna Lovegood and Jen is portraying her Gryffindor side.

Monday and Tuesday will be spent roaming around the Museum of Science and Industry, which I am unbeLIEVABLY incredibly insanely psyched about, and if all goes well, Tuesday night I will finally be seeing the Cubs and fulfilling a promise I made as a 9 year old to a man who made me learn all about, and love, the Cubs for life. If we do get to go, Elmore, you’re right there with us, and I promise I will try to catch a ball if it comes my way, just like I said I would!

Then I come home Wednesday, unpack, and start cleaning my room that’s been a disaster after school, moving things around, and starting to list things on eBay and look for a job, not to mention working on my taking over the world plan with Annette the Awesome (this is her official title now, even though she doesn’t know it), and hopefully getting my plans for LA taken care of. Not to mention writing my article for Massively about my Gods and Heroes trip, as well as writing more stories for Aerys Sports Soccer ๐Ÿ˜€

It’s a good thing I love writing, because I have an awful lot of it to do.

In other things, I’ve managed to pare my girly type items (makeup, nail polish) down to over half gone of what I had a year ago, and I have a lot to sell. I need to sell quite a bit (or trade for things that I will use), it’s the same with bath and body stuff… after going on a no buy on January 1, aside from things I have been 100% out of, I have not bought anything new, and found that my drawer and shelf space is increasing at a fairly good clip! It makes me happy. It makes me sad when I need to buy something!

I have lots of blog posts to make… still some NAB reviews…. still all about my trip to Austin.. so many other things. But right now, I keep on keeping on. School went well. I didn’t flunk anything. I improved most of my classes. In July I get my packet to get my work study, so I will have at least one job throughout next semester. I have no idea what comes in 6 months, and while it’s somewhat terrifying, right now, my brain just says “enjoy what you have now. The rest will come”.

So I am… and I’m leaving on a jet plane. Be back in a week!

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I really enjoy writing, and Twitter. So I tend to one off random things in some form. Tonight took it to an entirely new level. Just cutting and pasting this, more for posterity’s sake than anything, but it’s just awesome and needs saving.

s= @sprestonduncan m = @myrla_cat (hey, that’s me!)

s: My mind is a temple. My body is the sacrifice I make in that temple.

m: My liver is the altar on which many bottles are poured.

s: My conscience baptized in the triple hopped elixir of experience.

m: my soul melted on the choir benches of maniacal beats…

s: & evaporated from the lips of unconscious minions bowing slightly in the seraphic light seeping through curtains & melting glass

m: all diffused from a light greater than their own seeping through the shards of coloured glass.

s: and falling upon the listless hands, the aural redemption of nails stained with motor grease, and resin, and wasted time.

m: time is so transparent here, the dust settles upon things as if they have never seen a rag or a duster.

s: And history hangs from the shadows under the eyes of great fixtures and ivy mansions, moving slow & well manicured by the keepers

m: keepers whose names have been forgotten as their lives are given in service to keeping the place as it should be..

s: And silent in service as paint drying upon the walls of speech.


isn’t Twitter awesome?

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NAB Show 2011. I’ve been looking forward to this for months.

Flew in Sunday night, and arrived at Bally’s about 9something or other in my room. (I’m used to Central time, so for my internal clock, add two hours). Cleaned up, unpacked, got stuff dewrinkling, then caught up with my friend until roughly 130 am. Well worth it… realizing I had gotten up that morning at 530 PST… Well, I was tired enough I probably looked drunk walking across the casino floor last night. Came in, set an alarm for “ungodly o’clock” and laid down, but didn’t sleep all the 4 hours or so I had left.

Needless to say, my morning started out way too early. Woke up about 5 am (alarm set for 530), and spent the next 30 minutes in bed dozing off and drooling on my pillow going “unghhhhhhhhhhearlyneedcaffeinerawr”. Got out of bed (my room was cold!! Who forgot to turn on the heat last night!?? oh right, that would be my fault.) and dashed around getting ready. Couldn’t figure out if I wanted to eat breakfast downstairs at Bally’s (while it is a yummy breakfast…) or if I wanted to risk hitting Banner’s at the convention center. Banner’s won, and about 715 I headed down to the monorail and got to NAB proper. Fortunately they were open, I got my usual breakfast (Fruit, Yogurt, Bagel and Cream Cheese, and Caffeine). It was/is delicious and has become a staple of my NAB mornings. Oftentimes (like I am right now) I can sit here and eat my breakfast and work on my blog. It’s very nice and comfortable. Also, I have my tea that I brought from home that has more caffeine than most coffees. Nom nom nom nom nom.

While I was eating I was perusing around Twitter and the intermittently working NAB App, trying to figure out if I wanted to brave the James Cameron Keynote or not. I decided before I came out that if I’m going to be doing active things on Twitter, I need to be.. different to spot. (Aside from my fairly awful fashion sense). So I coordinated my outfits around various hair flowers I have. (Monday was bright orange, Tuesday is Dark Blue.. etc.) More on this with hilarious consequences later. You see all kinds here for dress, but generally if you’re clean and neat, don’t smell icky, and don’t look too scruffy, you’ll be okay.

I saw a tweet from @tysonbanks lookiing completely overwhelmed. My goal here at NAB is to network, meet as many of the NAB twitterati as humanly possible, and job hunt. Of course, to have fun but that’s pretty much a prerequisite as soon as you hit Vegas soil.

So I tweeted back, got a call, and met up. I remember how lost and amazed I felt last year – 80k+ people IS overwhelming! – and I didn’t really want to see the keynote alone, so we traipsed over there.. to see the ENORMOUS serpentine line. How was everyone going to fit in the room? The answer is, rather well – we got amazing seats and proceeded to watch NAB officially kicked off. There were the general welcome to NAB comments, the award to Eddie Fritts (former President of NAB) and then James Cameron.

It was literally all about 3d and how it will revolutionize the industry.

Alright. I have a confession to make.

I CAN’T SEE 3D. Not in art, not in paintings, and ESPECIALLY not on A SCREEN. The notable exception to this has been at the new Warren IMAX near my house in Wichita, KS – that screen is massively huge and I could see some elements for the first time, which is pretty awesome. But this year, NAB is really leaning heavily on 3d – the most notable thing I can remember from the keynote is “Soon we will be shooting everything in 3D and pulling the 2D elements out” – and I just hope that maybe by then they’ll improve 3D to the point where I can see it. (PSST: I am available to beta test a lot of things like that! I’m a willing scapegoat! I don’t eat much and I keep myself clean and entertained!)

The keynote really was amazing, and it was awesome being able to just listen to 2 obviously great minds banter about their passions. People following their passion is something I am always in favor for and will always support.

After the keynote, Tyson and I went our separate ways and I descended into the Pro Audio area. I love audio equipment. I love to play with it, I love to listen to it, it’s all shiny, new… and well, well out of my price range. Sigh. I immediately gravitated to one of my favorite booths from last year – Sennheiser/Neumann. I make no secret I am a huge fangirl, because last year, I finally found a pair of ($300) headphones that I (still) wish I had. This year? Found another pair I wish I had. The 30-35% hearing loss I have in my ears is drastic with better headphones. They make headphones that I cannot HEAR the difference. Basically, with normal headphones, I always feel like I have a piece of cotton on my left side – everything is slightly muted, it’s a bit off the highs and lows. I’ve grown accustomed to it.

However, at a show like this, I naturally gravitate to trying EVERY SHINY PIECE OF EQUIPMENT I CAN PAW GENTLY. Ahem. (I have OCOS- obsessive compuls–OOHSHINY. Explains much).

Back to Sennheiser. Their HD 25-I II headphones this year are “only” $199 and they also have no variance between my two ears. They sound THE SAME. I CAN HEAR THINGS. I undoubtedly will go over there every single day of the show just to listen and drool. They really are gorgeous though, along with the rest of them they have out, and they make great product. They also announced a couple of new mics yesterday and they really are lovely:


No, I’m not being paid for this promotional, but I do accept discounts on equipment @SennheiserUSA. Y’know. Like on headphones. ๐Ÿ˜€ or Mics….. *drool*

Ahem. Last year when I was here I methodically went through every hall, booth by booth.

My INTENTION yesterday was to do exactly that. This is more what happened.

Keynote > central > south > central > north > central > south > south > central > north > north > central.

I’m not actually sure that with all the exciting things going on this year I’ll be able to go booth by booth, unfortunately. That and I have a lot of interests on my own this year now that I’m more used to the ebb, flow, and layout of NAB. I have noticed this year, like last year, a lot of the presenters are either disinterested or tired of being here. ACTING, PEOPLE! nothing turns me off more in a booth than seeing interested people walk up to be ignored or half heartedly given an answer. Yes, I know having to work is a drag, but try not having a job for ~16 months.. then being asked all the time what kind of work you do. Plus, this is a really neat conference.

(Also. Males…. doesn’t matter what gender I am, I still love equipment, thank you for acting accordingly)

So after the keynote and while I am running around I check compulsively around Twitter.

There’s a group tweeting called Front Porch Digital (@fpdigitalcom) and they have a magician at their booth? And they’re actually tweeting with people and networking? SOLD! I run over to their booth, watch the magician (who was eerily good, really quite scary – magicians freak me out sometimes) and got to meet the actual voice behind the twitter account! We chatted for a while and I picked up my very first pen (please note, exhibitors, if you want a good mention in my blog, HAVE PENS. PEEEENSSSSSS – said like zombies!) Their product was really nice too, I should say, but check them out if you’re here. They’re over in N5806.

After that, I bum around North a bit more and gathered more pens ๐Ÿ˜€ I see that there’s a tweetup with @NABShow in South Upper, which is about as far away from the North Hall as humanly possible. Oh well, that’s what comfortable shoes are for. So I head up to South Upper and the Post Production Pit, and I got to meet @MitchArno and @KariRippetoe, and have some amazing conversations with them. I really want to be able to sit down at some point before this week is over and talk to them more! (as well as attend every tweetup humanly possible here at NAB). Unfortunately we were the only three at the tweetup… why? I’m not sure! there are tons of people on Twitter at NAB! Not so many companies… which should be rectified. (I have a great plan to merge the video/production portion of NAB with Social Media, stay tuned to this blog for details)

I got some awesome swag – pick of the litter! I always wanted a giant tshirt that’s very comfortable. ๐Ÿ˜‰ Since I was in South, I poked around a bit before hitting up South Lower… man, am I glad I did.

Killer Tracks was here last year – very nice people, great music licensing group, very nice to everyone, bright shiny booth (SL7615). They always have nice bags and neat swag – this year it’s a flash drive that you can wear as a bracelet – probably one of the most unique giveaways I’ve sen on the floor – and as I’m walking by, I see a poster that says “Alex Band! Here at the booth at 2 pm” and literally scream “WHAAAAAAT”.

Long ago, in almost another lifetime, I did Music/Entertainment/Movie/Game promotion.

Loved doing it. Still do. And in this lifetime, we worked with RCA, and I worked with this at that time little known band called “The Calling”.. of which Alex Band was the lead singer. So, we go way back. Circa 2002-2003, which would have probably been the last time I saw them.

Needless to say, I was absolutely floored and thrilled. YAY LIVE MUSIC ON THE NAB SHOW FLOOR! LIVE MUSIC THAT I LOVE! So I furiously rearrange the few plans I have for the rest of

the day and plan to be back at the booth by about 1. And then my phone starts dying. Drained battery in about 4 hours. WOOPS. Reminder: Next year – more phone battery backups.

I forgot to eat lunch yesterday. So insert a glowing review of some local restaurant that simply has the world’s best fish and chips ever. Because that’s what I want for lunch today. mmm. food.

I honestly kind of forget where else I ran around between finding out about the show and going to it. Pretty sure I headed back to Central and went around more on the attempt for more pens.

Oh. I headed back to North Hall to try to find a charging station for my laptop and hit the wifi lounge.

THERE ARE NO OUTLETS IN THE WIFI LOUNGE THIS YEAR. SERIOUSLY WHAT? They had tons last year. The Wifi was – and still is – sketchy, but NO PLUGINS (There’s a bank of them near the vending machines in the middle of Central Hall, though, so that’s where I’ll be going to charge things)

So I made the long trek BACK to South Hall and hit the restroom. Normally I wouldn’t share this, but there’s a hysterical #overheardatNAB story.

I’m washing my hands and checking the makeup, like girls do in the bathroom, and I hear “Hey! You’re that girl from Twitter!”

*blink* “Yeah! you have the flower in your hair”

“Woah! it worked! Who are you?”

And that’s how I met @LeeLeeB, who is a great person and very sweet!


I’ll review the Alex Band show later on today, but right now the floor is open and I’m itching to get out there. See you @NABShow today! And please, stop and say hi to me if you see me! I don’t bite. (much.) And I’ve had my rabies shots. (promise).

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