Every morning when I open my eyes, I peek through my blinds and see if it looks nice outside. Is it good enough to go practice freerunning or kick a (round) football around? Or is it another dreary day like the last few have been? Lately, it’s too cold and wet to do much of anything except sit inside and work on homework.
That’s one thing I have plenty of right now, homework. Spring break just ended, though my break hasn’t started yet. I worked all the way through Spring Break so I can postpone the majority of my free time to a little under two weeks from now, when I’ll be at the National Association of Broadcasters show in Las Vegas. This is my second year attending. My goals this year are to network, explore, and hopefully find a job. Job hunting exhausts me – this may sound silly, but after over 1400 applications, I can almost recite my resume from heart.
I’m really ready to have a job again. As much fun as it sounds “not having a job”, after exhausting unemployment benefits with no end in sight, that illusion is gone. I like feeling productive in society. I like knowing that the little bit I’ve squirreled away in savings can stay there. I appreciate knowing my cats have food and are current on their visits to the vet. I’m not entirely sure how I would have kept a job with 15 credit hours, but I could do it. I am very ready to try.
But why would I go to Vegas, which inevitably costs money? I don’t gamble for money, but call it a gut feeling. Something undefinable will happen in some great way. I’ve learned to trust my emotion and gut. I’ve been saving and scrimping for this show and giving up a lot of other things I’d like to have instead. I have always been taught that sometimes things need to be sacrificed for things that are wanted. It’s best to have goals and aspirations that are worth it.
Two weeks from now, I can be on the Strip. This thought will make me smile for the rest of today.